Ketchup

Okay, I do admit that naming a catch up post ketchup is pretty damn cheesy, but what's a better combo than cheese and ketchup? Especially grilled cheese which I coincidentally had for brekkie today:) I just realised it's been over a month since I last wrote something. Anything. Even my damn journal... I am sorry. Mostly toward myself. I can't even say I didn't have enough time, because that would be straight up lying and I only do so much of it.

Noeli will soon be 6 month old and I'm loving it. She is so amazing. Cute and beautiful don't even describe her anymore. Well they do, but she is so much more at this point. She's straight up hilarious and smart and loving and loved. It's crazy. We're slowly starting baby led weaning and it's the best thing ever. It's very cute watching her taste all the new human food. So far she had an avocado, which she did not like at all, then a banana which was better but I don't think she liked the texture of it and then a little bit of bread. She seemed to like that one. Maybe because the taste was bland.

It's a day later and we introduced a new allergen - milk, which she only licked, but liked the most so far. Also, I cooked her a carrot and she was quite neutral about that one. It also made it's way into her diaper which was funny. I wonder if she just tolerates all food a little better with every subsequent day or if it really depends on the taste.

Also as of today we are starting a sleep training. I don't remember the exact name of it, but it's supposed to be a gentle form of crying it out. Let's hope the method fits her and she magically becomes a good sleeper in a week. So far IT'S BEEN HARD. It's very uncomfortable to let her cry for a time without trying to soothe her. I'm curious if she's able to actually fall asleep by herself. We shall see.

The weather these days is almost the same as me during PMS. I take that back, I'm that moody all the time so we have this in common. Just last week was basically a peak of summer whereas this week is very close to winter. Its crazy. Noelka loved being out all the time. So did I. It makes a great time filler. Suddenly there is not much to do inside. Especially for an easily bored baby, although today she played independently for a long time. I loved it!

Trying to think of everything that happened this past month is harder than I thought. Obviously I don't want to bore you with, well boring stuff, but also, there's so much, yet so little that happened. With a baby, every week is a milestone and a month is basically a whole new person. She is starting to sit, which is crazy. Also, you can see how much she wants to crawl and can't. It is adorable. Even with just rolling she moves a lot - as in covers a big area. Here's a big one though - We went to a concert! I mean me and Timur. We got tickets to see Para and it was great. My mum and grandma came over to stay with her overnight and it did not go well. She was sweet the whole time until it was time to go to sleep. She was still awake when we came home - not that late, we only stayed til 10 - and barely slept during the night. Hopefully the next one will be a little easier.

I guess that covers the child and her new achievements. As for me, I really should have made time to post, I've just been procrastinating like shit. Noelka is more demanding, but saying that I haven't had time for a blog post is BS. So if you are wondering what I've been doing, then you're in the right place. As I said, outdoorsy activities consumed my days and I absolutely thrive in those. By outdoorsy activities I don't mean any sports or whatever. Its more of city strolls and coffee dates on the terrace and ICE-CREAM and picnics. I am very fond of those I realized. We've done 2 so far - in a span of 2 weeks and they've been lovely. The only downfall are bugs I guess. I know it goes hand in hand with being outside but I'm a little bit of a coward and am afraid of most bugs. And a lot of weird shit as well. Fun fact about me though, I wanted to go live in Australia. Yes, as you can see I can be absolutely delusional. But the living abroad thing isn't too wild according to our political situation...

I don't know if I already mentioned this, but I've started therapy. It's a love hate relationship at the moment. I love that I'm doing this for myself and am trying to heal and be a better mum to my baby boo, but also, It's freaking hard. It's something I want to have fixed during the first sesh, but I've also realized it's going to take a long time before it gets better. Well, wish me luck and also to be brave enough to face myself. UFF.

I finally managed to call my BF - best friend, but if you got confused, here is my other blog about it;) which is very challenging in a long distance friendship. Especially one with such a stupid time difference. I miss her greatly but she is coming home in a little bit. Super exciting!

Okay in all honesty the main reason for my absence was the acute addiction on a book series. I've started reading ACOTAR - inspired by one of my many role-models Claire Holt - and the series has me on chokehold. If you want me to write about it, I will gladly do so. If you want an easy reading and a book that continues in 4 other books, go for it. However, if you don't have enough time on your hands and don't want to be consumed by it then just skip it. I literally read at every free moment I have. I became a total book worm. To my surprise it is not an absolute smut even though there are some spicy scenes. But it does have an actual plot. And Rhys totally looks like Timur in my mind. It is not healthy i do realize that, but...

Also, I started painting another artwork for Noelka's bedroom. So far I like it but who knows how it turns out. That is the second creative hobby I acquired in the past month. I've also been learning how to knit and made Noeli a beanie and a bonnet. Both too big, but still cute.

And lastly, I shaved my head. It's been a long time coming. I absolutely love it. I love how feminine it looks. I feel very beautiful which can be rare and therefor highly appreciated. Well its been a lot. And so little as well. Funny. Im blabbering, so let's just call it quits and see you in a week. Hopefully. love you!

Kika x